Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I ♥ art

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My major is International Business and come Fall I'll hopefully graduate and enter the working force full time. How does this relate to the photo above? Well I regret taking up this major. I try not to regret things I've done in my life, decisions I've taken or anything like that but I can't help but regret giving in to my dads wishes and studying this. You see I really wanted to study something artsy like photography or graphic design but my dad didn't agree with my choices and since hes paying for tuition I had to give in and study something business-y. So here i am. Three years after that decisions been made and i still long for art. I still wish i had changed my major three years ago and went with my hearts desires.

However, i try to console myself with the fact that maybe one day i could go back and study whatever i want or maybe continue learning by myself. I will continue taking photographs and designing. I think its in my blood. I don't really know how good i am but I'd like to become amazing at it. I'll keep going forward. I will keep on traveling to new destinations and snapping shots wherever i go. I will always have photoshop or any other kind of software on my laptop and try to always get inspired.

Another art form I'm into is writing. I do get writers block often but whenever i can, i write. I may not be as good as J.K Rowling but i hope to be one day.

I've also tried acting. I discovered that i like it quite a lot. I only did one course back when i was about 15 and it was only stage acting and that meant we had to memorize and get the play perfect but hey its still acting. I'm grateful for that course and my mentors because they helped me quite a bit. I became less shy and gave me the courage to get up and speak in front of a crowd.

To make a long story short. I ♥ art.

Book Post

I got this book a while back and read a couple of pages but then for some reason didn't finish it. I picked it up today and started reading. I got it from Virgin Megastore

Lets get started

So I just finished my final exams yesterday and I've decided to be more active on blogger. I've said this over and over again A LOT. I know I know. Lets give it another shot.

I'll be doing many random things on here. Might do some book reviews or something book-related. Might start a fashion blog or a simple outfit of the day photos (OOTD). Very random things actually. So lets get started!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Broken Angel

Tonight's no different than any other night. Tonight's the same. Four months have passed and I still find myself lost, insecure, tired, alone, helpless, annoyed, pissed off, depressed, desperate and simply heart broken.

I know no amount of words will bring you back. No amount of tears will soften your heart. No amount of begging or pleading will persuade you. No amount of dreams will make us a reality.

I had you. Or rather thought I did for a while. But i guess the truth is the circumstances drew the line, i was never yours and you were never mine. It was heavenly while it lasted. I loved every second of it. No regrets whatsoever.

One of my selfish wishes is that you remember me. That one day you'll look back and ask yourself why you let go. Maybe one day you'll tell someone about me. About us. Our hopes. Our dreams. Our fantasies.

There's no point in me typing up these words because i know you'll never read them. There's no point waiting for you because i know you don't want me. You don't need me..

As much as those words hurt i say them because they're the truth. Or maybe they're all lies.. I guess I'll never know with you...

If i could turn back time i wouldn't change a thing. All the smiles, the laughter, the tears, the hugs, the kisses. Staying up all night talking to each other. Falling asleep together... they all seem very unreal now.. like they're fragments of someone else's memories. Not my own.

Its probably very selfish of me to want you back.. to wish for you.. but i cant help it..

I'm sorry..

I dont know how to turn of a feeling...

Please forgive me for that ounce of humanity in me..